Ayashi No Ceres ~ Manga ~ Reflection Thoughts & Memories... contd...

Chapter 84... I finished Ayashi no Ceres the Manga... leaves a rather deeply sad feeling... Tooya, although returned for now won't even live enough to see his child grow up... Chidori, Shuro ad even Aki... all dead... last night when I read about Shuro's death it left such an impact on me... I called up my friend Nihita and talked to her for a long time... I just couldnt stop crying... Ayashi no Ceres is such a painful manga... but it's so beautiful... Yuu Watase's work always leave me so touched... I'm gonna find the anime of Ayayshi No Ceres... somehow... somehow... I'll surly be a better person as I go on... my friends... Tamahome... they're my courage... my inspiration... my life... I'm glad I know people who understand, people who're sensative to others' feelings as well, people who make being alive a little more meaningful, when I think about it... when I imagine how something I say or do would heal someone's heart, when I think I can be the source of streangth to anyone... when I think someone would love me for the person that I am ... it makes me want to try more, do much better, no matter how hard it is... I want to try... for everyone's sake to whome I matter... Lee... Nihita... Chas... Kami Kun... and so many dear people in my life, I wish I could support them like they did to me... Thank you Chas for always being there for me... you're so very much like Hotohori and Yuuhi... lol, I didn't feel that lonely when you were around... Kami Kun... thank you... I was able to open my heart and freely cry because you were there to listen and understand, I'll never forget that... Lee, my dearest bro, when I couldn't do anything, you supported me... through the darkest hours in my life... because you were there for me I was able to survive... Nihita, sweety, thanks for always cheering me up when I was down... did you know you were helping me in such a big way when you smsed me... I'm glad I met everyone I did... because it made me be who I am... litle by little... it saved my soul... so even with the pain, I can live now fully...